mind debloggers

Rainy day….sure thing it is a rainy day.nevertheless,this I call the rain of joy…I strolled home under da drizzling,somehow calming,soothing rain I would define it.at that very moment,I was in a euphoric mood.I dunno y,maybe cz my name has da word rain?hahaha…n once again,carrie underwood’s some hearts sang to my ears whilst I’m strollin bk.”I cudnt live a lie”,”some hearts”&”wasted”was those 3songs that flowed into every bit of my veins.
*Out of my concsious,I thought of azira’s concept “the world is beauTiful”…4once,I was ultimately positive on my life,theres much that i can offer to this Bumi,lots of things2b explored&i am not alone.
*my mind was as crystal clear as da blue water underneath da rain clouds.wished i could attain this state of clarity day after day…its tough but anything is possible when we believe in it.go rain,go rain!

Now I’m absolutely,totally blown my head off…I’ve been taking life too serious I guess,but hey shud I put under da gilotin 4it?I dint want to!
That’s it!my brain is goin nuts again,seemingly my fragility of brain management is haunting me once again as usual.y can’t I b persistent into being a positive human bein 4once in my life?too many questions surfaced on my head,its way too perplexing 4me 2solve it by myself.arrrghhhh….!
I’m so uncertain on many aspects but y?there goes again…..aNotha ques!(rainier!,snap out of it)….geez,I’m pretty dumb afterall huh(hey I haven’t got my degree/s yet),isit fair4me2label myself 2such a disgrace?wat da heck…
What I’m currently doin?dUh! Writing this blog on my pda while listening to some old hits..I’m so insane nw,asking myself ques n answering it myself,pretty pretty lunatic this guy.no wonder all r running away from me,fearin of bein “interrogated”by me.hahaha….
#this was written a week or so back,but ony nw I’m publishing it,forgot…)

my cut short leave of initially 10days to 6days(chef mike,u shudnt hv cut my cuti la,hw cud u….arrrggghhhh….,i nid a break too) went great so far.my 1st day?i was in pwtc 44da kl war crimes tribunal conference(thankin dilla for this)…the exhibition is actually very disturbing 4da faint hearted ones.luckily im not!hahaha….unless im there,i wud still b oblivious of da inflictions n the wrath of sanctions 2any country generally,plights by those whom hv been inflicted mentally n physically,hidden agendas by those crooks,known better as da world superpowers n otha issues as well…da most remarkable sight on tat day was aziras n intans zeal,enthusiasm on this sensitive issue(tey recorded da whole proceedings i presume,more or less).salute to those 2gals!

it is tiring 4me,especially when i hafta sit idle most of tym(i hate sitting 4a long period,it makes my muscle motionless)…but on this exception coz of da input tat i gained…i can sit but i must attain sth from it(be it general information,facts,ideas,etc…hey,if got forums,conference,debates,wat so ever do count me in,i lyk these stuffs…

I hv aplenty thoughts n things that I wanna speak out but I’m at sixes n sevens nw…unsure of which chapter I shud mk it da headline 1st…oh gosh….! 2blog on my current life pun so susah….

some pretty hard fought working days this last two mths,this mth its horrendus!!!its super dupery hectic,ya of course when we hafta survive da entire whole day vf ony four workman power!!!!!skipped lunch lootsa times…sighs,but wat to do….

now,its officially i have work under this kitchen for a year de,n im thinking of fleeing away to otha hotel,n work in a fine dining restaurant,n b a better cook,learning all da fineer steps in whipping up dishes….worse to worse,ill jz switch to anotha kitc,that is also a fine dining rest n its famed for medditerannean dishes…ever heard of ceviche,sole fish,moussaka????even this three sounds new for me…

heres da prob,whilke im making da sauces for lunch buffet,my chef n i had a talk…n he is raising his hopes that i would b da "pelapis "vf quality to do da cookings later,he do hv othas to rely on but he wudnt bet on em based on their performance(theres politic too even in kitchen k!!!)…ive been thinking of cooking in anotha hotel or otha kitc,bu8t out of a sudden hes telling me ll  this…i get paid less but i worked better n harder than some otha of my collegues that posess higher post but are lazy,always goes missing…so itot,wats da po9int….beter for me to switch to otha,fresh new enviroment n in turn i would b paid more…this is indeed confusing..(actually this have a long story to go but i narrowed it down to this ony…)

some hearts jz get on da right brakes,

some hearts hv stars by their side

some hearts jz get it so easy

some hearts jz get lucky sometimes…

some hearts jz get lucky,lucky sometimes….

that is da corus of carrie underwood’s hit single,SOME HEARTS….it does hold an unshaken statement by words on itself isnt it???i jz dont get it…i kept singing these corus all da time…i wonder…

food spree!!!!!thats what me(mainly)n my otha two frens did in mouse island,pulau tikus is da actual name….sounds funny even in english…!!! we dine to this old n ancient coffeeshopvf lots of hawker stalls.i whacked

• pineapple fried rice
• fried kuey teow
• penang rojak
• pai tee

but not to forget  fried scrambled egg vf oyster….hmmmm!!! delicious!!!!!im actually not a fan of fried kuey teow but i overheard penang ones are very nice,so i gave it a try n wow!!! it has this smokey,dried,wok fried kinda flavorthat really marvelled me!!!!!!!even the prawns are fresh,i mean really fresh,juicy&relatively larger than kl ones.thank God im full n loaded afta i had kuet teow or else………….hahahaha.

then da midnite we went out again,unexpecting to be whacking food again…but we did!!!

this tym pasembor,mixed fruits,fried mee,watermelon n carrot juice was flushed down into my digestive tract…to put it in a nutshell,penang is a haven  for the tastebuds that hungers appeling,appetizing,delectable n scrumptious foods….

so head to penang if ur a food addict….the next day my frens were on scrabble comp,leaving me alone scouring over penang….

• frankly said,it is a journey of discovering flavors,cultures,ingredients,etc…n im definite that i will not exhaust da culinary repertoire anytimwe in my years of cooking…
• how ido i bump into this field?many had questioinedme why,why n why on earth i indulged in this field as i was a science student….even myself cudnt unstn this predicament.many of my were astounded as i dont have any sort of culinary experiences,yet i landed myself a job  for this field…
• weird huh?????
• maybe whwen things are meant to be,it is definitely meant to be.i do think so at da present moment
• actually this is a walk that will fly me to otha continents,tasting new falvors,styles of cookingn a whole new medium of culinary experiences….
• that is pretty cool isnt it……

wow!!!what an enormously bz day in my kitchen section…nevertheless,im having a finger lickin’ good of the pressuring amount of tensions,dissapointments on my "2mths old’collegue(if u get wat i mean) n it surfaced right when all of us r bz during afternooon period,vf ony 5 workman force settling da "mis en place,FRENCH WORD  I GUESSED"for tomoros buffet n coffee breaks n functions!!! try to digest that!!!!

make things worse,theres one stupid function vf 1300 capacity,graduation day for apiit students,n our dishes were selling lyk hot cupcakes only!!!in less than 5minutes,all were snatched up..i hafta refill like i nver did b4 man!!!!

sure thing i am tired,body filled vf fatigue,eyes shuting its window down,yet i am in cyber cafe downloading n transferring songs n pics in n out of my pda n  cc’s pc…pretty stupid huh???sacrificing own sleep….at present,im starving !!!

i jz dont get it ,seemingly i love to torture my very fleshes apart,secreting hcL’s into my stomachs lining….as i always say to myself,either im………

1 ….jz plain weird,ostracising myself from world,keeping minimal contact

2….my day to hv a tennagers life is way falling behind my bandwagon..

or……….

3…..i jz dont give a f………… to anything.

sure thing this past four days has been a hell nightmare for me!!! since tuesday till friday,my banquet kitchen had been bombarded vf lotsa functions,buffets&bbq’s as well…da apex of all this bzness was yesterday!,theres one 150pax bbq function at poolside,one buffet dinner 150 pax too!!!!,then anotha 30pax of bbq function& last but not to mention a 200+pax ocs function.wondering wat ocs mean??its outside catering service…

N we have to face all those functions with ony a mere 4 workman power only man!!!as for wed n tues theres only 3of us working…phew!!!!so i hafta work day n night,believe it anot ive fagged myself  working as early 7am till 11pm for those four days…its complicated to work in kitchen k…there are wars too for every kitc department…hehz…but luckily im off today…but its not bz today….so my otha collegues are lucky not to suffer the fate as i endured.tired man!!!!!