mind debloggers

I nid a kampong to crash in…a village in other words.I am sure to resign n after that,I wud wanna go backpacking,explore da kampongs,etc,their simple yet happy life,the homey prepared vf love dishes,n so on..
only a kampong lifestyle wud b able to save me from my disorganized thinking,life n wholly as a person.
So now,anything willing to offer some help@assistance?
I AM SERIOUS,NOT JOKINGLY SAYING IT.
I don’t my own kampong,as all are residing in kl.
PLZ……!

Friends….
this seems to be a very common word in everyday’s life.But it means a lot to me,very much indeed…
#here’s my predicament,imbroglio,dilemma,quandrary,whichever applies(i have no sense on anything already)
1-Dilla,she actually emancipated me from my year long “illness”that flustered me.(i won’t delve into that “illness”,maybe ill blog it next time)….really thanking her4that!
But then,things went awry&we no longer are friends,as she claimed…or is it just me?(told u I have no sense to this world already)
2-Khairul,my primary,then secondary classmate till form3.He spurred me to strive for da Best as far as I can do in exams.(hes da top 2 for da three consecutive years)we played togetha,studied togetha,n fooled too during those schooling years.He started to b a studious guy after we’re in form1,so I asked him how he did it.To my irony,he said da reason lies on me,”u scored 4a’s n I 3a’s ony for upsr when ur absEnt for classes on da accident that befallen on u,hence I got da inspiration to be better thru u”…n I just smiled.4da record,I tried very much harder but never got close to him even by a whisker during exams,da closest was I got 2nd in class&as usual he got 1st but he’s scores are way much superior to mine 4da last exam b4 we sat4 pmr exam.(we both scored straight A’s for that pmr exam : ) ) Now,he’s doing well in UM rite now.
3-my national service mates aka banana club members…I missed em much,we met a few times,but we hardly sms now.time do separate us all apart.

I truly have been discursive from what I wanna convey actually…lantak la….mmg rainier sudah giler….

1-soon ill quit my job….!
#any valid reason 4that?
my chef is not lettin me go to Marche restaurant….he’s creating all sorts of excuses,yadaa,yaddda,yadda…..

2-what am I gonna do 4a living then?
#oh yes,a living….haven think of it yet.haha….bodoh nye rainier..!
maybe wuk4free in Marche restaurant@……….
pack my stuffs n books n read,read,read&read till I blow up my cortex.
sorang lagi rainier yg bodoh….!

I’m being sarcastic actually.I ony yearn 4a new challenge,higher pay2accumulate my wealth in a year@two to fly n work,study perhaps?….susahnye jadi manusia….

There are moments in life when you miss someone
so much that you just want to pick them from
your dreams and hug them for real!

When the door of happiness closes, another opens;
but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don’t see the one which has been opened for us.
#Don’t go for looks; they can deceive.
# Don’t go for wealth; even that fades away.
#Go for someone who makes you smile,because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright.
#Find the one that makes your heart smile.

Dream what you want to dream;
go where you want to go;
be what you want to be,
because you have only one life
and one chance to do all the things you want to do.

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet,
enough trials to make you strong,
enough sorrow to keep you human, and
enough hope to make you happy.

There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from
your dreams and hug them for real!
When the door of happiness closes, another opens;but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don’t see the one which has been opened for us.
#Don’t go for looks; they can deceive.
#Don’t go for wealth; even that fades away.
#Go for someone who makes you smile,because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright.
#Find the one that makes your heart smile.
#Dream what you want to dream;
# go where you want to go;
# be what you want to be,because you have only one life
and one chance to do all the things
you want to do.
May you have enough happiness to make you sweet,enough trials to make you strong,enough sorrow to keep you human, and
enough hope to make you happy.
The happiest of people don’t

Yes ,I am in love vf a
1) young,
2)lovely,
3)astute,
4) quintessense,
Yet shes one
1) obdurate
2)susceptible girl…

Its a bête noire,forbidden,repugnance love,she hates me not….
INSTEAD she hates me dearly!
I reckon…

Is remision being gained@shud I let time bring fourth the remission by itself?shud I weigh on the latter,I somehow wud regard myself as being a procastinator,a fatuOus friend,brother to my very much adorned sis’s,n wholly as a person.

As I have a propensity to mend things up so that they’l bury the hatchet after a couple of days,my endeavour doesn’t seem2b fruitful…I reckon I’m a MR sucker to this pujuk pujuk thingy after all..! Supposingly I tried way too hard until they got weary of me.No wonder I don’t hold any friends nowdays..im nt being sarcastic btw k…

Anyhow,I must give it a try,otherwise,im more susceptible on being defriended(is there such a word?) in which i have the paranoia on losing some of them as my care for them is very much in abundance…everyone deserves a second chance,that i believe on.As

dila once said,rainier is a sick retarded idiot…nw i seriously  think i am…!!!!

i shud hv not trusted anyone…!!!

I was indulging on starbucks coffee n frapps last month…I cud say I will stop by there,if nt hours,it wud b all day long!..crazy I am until my nasal problem cropped up once again,n this was big time4me!!! I had da most excruciating migrain I ever encountered these past 3years,throbbing constantly even after I took ponstant&otha medications prescribed by da doc.doc suspected me of migraine initially,until I went there4da third time in a week,then only she diagnosed me of reccurence nasal blockage,resdung in malay term…THANKS TO MY CAFFEINE&COCO BINGE!!!
as for this time,she prescribed me nasal medications along vf a counter migraine med,sth which possese a more powerfull effect than ponstant,da name,I cudnt remember,its so alien from my vocabulary.
at lea t I’m ok nw…or else must under go a surgery in hkl…! pray that it xhappen once again….or I’m so dead.