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hRELATIONSHIP…….does it belong to every biotic being that resides in any corner of this plateau????

if the answer is YES,why must it always crumble when ever its pertaining to me???my real parents,

then my 2nd mum,

elder brother,

next is my friends….

and my MOST IMPORTANT ONE the girl of my life!!!!

im still able to condone my parents for what they have done in my life….&i dont give a damn bout friends as i dont need loadz of friends to survive in this life…handfull of trusted FRIEND’S will be adequate enough for me&i do have it now.

BUT my girl of my life???i just could NOT afford to lose her as it proves to be very costly for my life……we really had a fruitfull relationship.We dont argue,love each other as who we are,just like in the play by shakesphere…ROMEO N JULIET… shes an individual that is so caring towards me,have a good heart,lovable,love to be independant&she is now,partially…

does our past will effect all of our present relationship???i could not deceive her as its not healthy for our relationship…so i told her a secret that only God knows….i regretted for what i had done&for that i learned from it to be a better man…i do know that its actually unacceptable for forgiveness but deep in my heart i know that she loved me as well……………

id tried every single word to convince her i am not the old rainier anymore but to no avail…& now two of us are really heart broken and dissapointed but the damage is more to her now i presume…if i have a wish that can be granted,i would not after wealth,a miss universe gf nor everlasting life…………………………………..

I WANT HER BACK!!!!!!!!!!

should our judgement based on our past???if an individual have changed most of every aspects from a rotten egg to a shimmering gold,shouldnt he or she will be granted a second chance???

i really do hope that u are reading this my dear…….we are so compatible to each other,we shared the same dream for our future…will u have the heart to let it be shattered just by my past????i am willing to wait for u to recover from the wound just  DONT LEAVE ME WITOUT U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

• LIFE really sucks without our loved ones….felt isolated,ignored,unimportant in othas life…etc….evrytime when something went wrong,i will ponder da hole day long"if i want to"to jz crack what the dummest thing i had done again…in return,i will be inflicted with migraine&disturbance.BUT when i think back,it pays little relevance actually…so,why  should i in the 1st place???what a spaz i am!!!
• i should have just leave all my burdens behind my back n get on v my life&studies too!!!its actually a matter of time when  things would heal by itself.Y on earth dint i think of that in the 1st place????then i woudnt be in this pool of muddle.i got evryting entangled&i myself have to unravelled it back again…SIGH…………………………….
• IF THEY DONT UNSTN ME,WHY I SHUD UNSTN THEM INSTEAD WHEN THEY ARENT APPRECIATING MY EFFORTS TO PATCH THE DIFFERENCES RIGHT???I dont lose a single penny on their lost as my friend rite…this always happen in my life,for guys&gals out there,ffind it by urself k.one fren will sort of like abandon me&GOD instantly sent anotha fren of mine that im not yet close to.THANK YOU LORD!!&now,im close to this fren better than ever.IM  making sure that this fren will last coz this individual  is so sweet!!!!!&understanding…knows exactly what i am going through in life…be it in financial matters,family commosions,studies&etc….

times square for scrabble comp???doesnt suit at all!!!!!let me briefly explain b4 i proceed further down 2my overall performance :)…..venue is sucky,i mean it really sucks!!!!gloomy,dingy,unceiling,congested vf excess tables&chairs…u guys n gals get da rough idea rite???kinda spooky too…

OK…tats enuf…down to game part.1st game was challenging coz i n my opposition have a 2-1 record against him.i wuz well in da lead at 1st by 100+ spread but in the end game,he narrowed da gap by 60+…hehe,i day dreamed right when im on da cusyen4my 1st victory.Still i bagged it by a spread of 70+…tot tat my performance aint impressive in my view..sigh…………

2ND game wuz worse cz im being paired vf Kuhan,hey not da hockey playa k….we dint play against each otha in our entire involvement of scrabble comp…our  score remained close most of da time but he made da breakthrough right b4 he ends his rack vf a bingo summore!!!hooking R to YA(on board)forming slender vf 68points..there goes my 2nd win….our spread wuz 77 afta addin few points originally from my tiles to his score.hey!!it is a scrabble unless  i opt to deduct my points from my score…AFRAID NOT!!!!!

Skip 3rd till 7th game part,i eventually won everyting……execpt………. game 5 i guess.lOST TO MARTIN teoh by a mere 18points.DANG IT!!!!!hes da eventual  champion….i shouldnt hv made silly blunders against him….so,down to game 8 against kalai,a walk in participation….this is where i hit my highest word 4d word emerald,a total of 93 points..lower than u-15 bingo for wezands,120+points…final score 443 to 295.

thats for day 1..actual ting tat i shud do afta im back is 2learn more n more words….instead i went online&chat vf kishani…we chat 4 hours…nearly 5 hours man!!!!am i out of my mind 4neglecting my practice???guess so………….but i had nice chat her,were like neva contact 4so lond de,a ns fren of mine…shes cute oso k but can kick ass….last time we met wuz at stacys CNY open houz….we strucked lotza conversations..(hey roxie, u must be delighted czz i mention u)

DAY2

ANOTHA 3MORE GAMES&KING OF DA HILLS…..started9th game rather groggy, had bad tiles most of it but managed to oust her by 74points…i can conclude game 10 euz most memorable as i formed 4 bingoes,SANDIER for 75,MATTERS for 68,ANTSIER for70,lastly BEEPINGS for 86.wow!!!is tat my plays???CANT BELIEVE IT!!!!i thrashed him 540 to 289…..

Again da bingo aura us living in me again….tiz time thrashing sin yew(my 1st oppenent)vf 4 bingoes as well,,,,,REPAINT 4 a low 68,ACIDEST 4 77,SCOUTED 475&STAGIER(ROOT WORD OF STAGE)4 80…..i wuz abolutely estatic&overwhelmed!!!!chattin vf kishani actually brought me luck…..shes my lucky charm now i wud say….again i met him again….sigh……we set up a rather putrid pace as scores is jz mediocre…in my conquest to be champ,i must crush him down to earth again to be able to challenge martins 1st placing…sad but true i made countless errors…worst is he bingoed vf 60 points!!!my 1st placing dream is diminishing a fast as a hot cup of h20 in the desert……final score 333vs 309.1

1ting for sure is my 3rd place belongs to me eventhou da ranked below me win their respective game n i lose,i still lead cz of my higher wins….even my cumulative spread is 1300+ at tat moment…higher than martins oso,sightly lar….hehehehe……..2nd placing isin my sight for two reasons now…if i beat sin yew again&martin do me a favour by defeating kuhan…im on tenterhooks til very few last moves where i bingoed vf PLANETS….&martin overtook kuhan b4 last few moves.PHEW!!!WAS TAT CLOZE!!!!!!!

YAHOO!prize giving ceremony…quite fantstic in prizes allocated 4us…i received a throphy,80ringgit voucher in debenhams,squad seven(i dont hv a clue of wat da heck is tat!!!!)junior scrabble set&a box wrapped…a tumbler i guess.20ringgit as fees isnt bad afta all,ive been’reimbursed’more than i shud be getting….tats all folks…ITS FREAKING LONG,BUT I CANT HELP IT.

BYES…………..

3days for scrabble competition sounds agonising for most of da human beings…"hey,18 games are played,isnt that sounds a fatigue activity to do???"38 players gathered at equatorial cameron high’s for tis annual comp.phew…am i lucky!!!i juz arrived in da nick of time right b4 da comp starts..i wuz totally in awe looking at da players themself…DUH!!!they r masters&im ony a rookie in this whole new atmosphere.i thought in my heart"im a dead man walking by 3rd day i presume,get trashed by 200 to 300 in spreads"after a while,i scrambled to my respective room with my fren,kUHAN.hehe…im being sponsored to go there,how GREAT!!!!!!&i hitchED a ride with his dad,get da tings needed 4our 1st game tourney…i dint even get a chance to catch a breath!!!

result for 1st game???i got thrashed by a singaporean by 207spread..OMG!!!a disaster in my scrabble circuit…worse is hes about my age only!!!again,i whispered to myself "im going back empty handed tis time with point deductions 4my rankings in malaysia"SIGH!!!!

2ND GAME im paired with a representative from MAS airlines…i played with my tempo at 1st but then i screwed it afta a few turns…makes no point!!!out of nowhere,i had a fruitful of alphabets on my rack&there i went…BANG!!!A BINGO!!!!!!!!im in the lead now…YAHOO!now i got da adreneline pumping…i kept scoring with high scores on triple word score,double word score&etc….i cant remember wheater ive played a phoney for my turn,OOPS…LUCKILY SHE DID NOT CHALLENGED OFF THE WORDS.final score,a hapless score of 204 against an astonishing 495 for myself..guess my BIGGEST ever winning spread i achived…the most unexpected one happened..id won da spot prize for highest winning spread.two day 1nite stay at allson klana with breakfast for two.ok la….

otha games wuz nearly da same exept i lost more games that i won…hahahaha……otha funny ting is that i actually lost 4game streak afta i took my shower during da break on the afternoon.maybe i shud not in the 1st place coz i wuz winning before that!!!!DANG IT!!!!!!MY biggest ever lost wud be against an old lady tat i heard before,more than 230 plus if im nto mistaken..still a promising position in top 16 dint last for long cz at this stage,it is da king of the hill stage…i may meet same player for da 2nd consecutive play…its really pathetic especially when da person id beaten previously met me back but this time da otha way around,i LOST!!!

in the end,i finished 32nd out of 38 players…kien hung said i shud have played better moves(hes da guy tat got me da sponsorship)&i could finished in top 25..&tat wud earn me yet another prize,2nd runner up for ratings below 1350.anyway,past is past….

in two days time,im competing in open division 4national closed scrabble championship at times square…hope i will do better though tis time around….wish me luck k…..adieu….